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Name: Leah
Country: United States
State: New Hampshire
Birthday: 12/22/1988
Gender: Female
Interests: My friends... my tree, etc. I like to write when people hurt me. I love singing too it calms me down a lot of the time, and often playing my instruments.
Expertise: music I guess
Occupation: Student
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  reba3307
Member Since:
3/12/2005
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| yo I put up a new layout. It's quite.. pink. but a great song. what do you think? Wow I don't update this site anymore much. in fact, I may even be done... but it's still here... | | |
| 3 years. wow. but surprisingly, I wasn't terrified of today. I think being in a different house helps. Not to mention the fact that a lot has changed and gotten better. I just, can't completely neglect the day. 3 years. | | |
| why does this have to happen? she was just fine like all year until tonight.... I wish I could just rant but I can't say too much. She just, can't do that. It's not fair to me. It's gonna drive me away even faster. grrr help me? ugh, I just want to talk to YOU** | | |
| what would you do if I told you I had considering hurting myself again? Don't worry... I haven't actually done anything in 182 days. But I had thought about it again, like in December. I didn't want to say anything. People had become so used to me being better and took for granted that I was "regular ol' happy Leah" again, but now I was sick w/ this breathing thing, that also took some attention away from my "other issues" and nobody had bothered to ask me about it in a long time (besides the select few, but even at December it had been a while since the subject was brought up at all...) so I told one person. one person knew from the time I had the thoughts again in December. I recently told two other people. And I realized like, today, that I shouldn't hide it again. I didn't want to bring it up at first cuz I figured it wasn't a big deal, and I didn't want to upset anybody, but then I realized that I just need to be honest with everybody. So let's go back to December... don't ask why, cuz I don't really know, but through a combination of several things and a good spot for Satan to interfere brought me to the consideration of what it would be like if I just took a pen to my wrist again... then the voice (ahem, thank you elmo) "no. it's not worth it" so I couldn't. And I prayed. and God gave me the strength to ignore the temptation. but the temptation still arises every once in a while. It doesn't mean I still have a problem w/ depression and cutting, but I'm human, Satan gets in everyone's minds and tries to distract them. so now you know. also, a little occasional checking in, or umm reassurance, is always nice. thank you. | | |
| "Treat older women as you would your mother, and treat younger women with all purity as you would your own sisters."-1 Timothy 5:2 NLT
Don't you understand what this verse means? Why did you never apply this verse 10 years ago? TREAT YOUR SISTERS WITH PURITY!!! Think about it... was what you did at 13 pure? You know who you are... but you probably won't ever read this... I wish you would. I "accidentally" found this verse today. But I know it opened my eyes. It gave me biblical proof that you shouldn't have done what you did. Do something. Talk to me when you've thought about it and come to reality. | | |
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